weird mood

i am in such a weird mood.. i have been since camp. i dont really know how to describe it. i'm not in a bad mood or a really good mood...both good and bad things have happened and i have changed moods because of them.. but not for long--i just go back to this mood i'm in.. it is almost serene... i dont like being alone nearly as much as i used to...

i'm doing ok so far since my goals... well at least with the staying in touch with oasc and trying to be a better friend...and i guess staying positive too... I've been talking to alot of my friends lately.. or at least letting them know i have been thinking about them.

i'm also throwing around the idea of running for state rep... i'm relly not sure though. i dont think i could handle it if i didnt get it, for one. another is that i know alot of ppl who are considering it-- ppl i dont care to run against. and then i am not sure if i will have the time to dedicate myself fully to the position and program... i know those sound all negative.. but then there is so much to gain from it. I love oasc... more than almost,if not anything. just about everything in my life connects to it in some way or another. i have so many ideas and i really care for the program. i just am not sure... i guess i have time to think about it... maybe i will toss it around with a few ppl...hmmm